On The Other Hand...

June 6, 2018

Hey y'all, it's me!

I have been looking about the house and yard, and I am excited at how it's all S-L-O-W-L-Y coming together and forming a cozy haven for my family and friends. I especially love how my living room is looking. I am still on the lookout for a 'window seat' type of dresser or bench, and of course we still have to replace the floor. That should be simple enough--we are going to put down sheets of 3/4 inch plywood and paint it with an epoxy paint. Possibly there will be area rugs in the future, but no hurry, it will all take place in the right time. I am just enjoying everything I already have, and being content.

On the other hand...

My camera was accidentally dropped Saturday, and on Sunday the lens jammed. It's stuck at the halfway point, makes an awful grinding noise, then shuts off. My heart sank, because that camera is how I take all the photos for this blog, and besides it was given to me by a dear friend. It's used, yes, but it worked beautifully.

I don't know if it can be repaired, or if I can afford to have it done. The Redneck said something about just buying another camera, and then we can try to get this one repaired. I thought it was a good idea, because while I am using the Redneck's phone to take photos and put them on my laptop--I just love an actual camera. I was trained to use a 35 MM, and nothing else feels right when I am lining up a shot. People also seem to think your photography is more SERIOUS is you use a camera versus a cell phone.

I called a chain pawn shop not too far from us, and asked if they had any cameras. The gentleman told me about a Canon camera that the lenses could be changed out on, and that it came with a bag full of accessories. I asked how much it was, and he told me.

$400.00.

My heart sank again.

I thanked him, said I would be in this weekend to look at cameras, and hung up.

While I know that $400.00 for a Canon with all the accessories is a pretty sweet deal--my budget won't allow that type of expenditure, and I can't bring myself to ask the Redneck for it.

I have told myself that it isn't to be, that I will either purchase a much cheaper camera, or wait to get the Kodak repaired and continue to 'limp along' using the Redneck's phone when I can. I am a 'Thriftologist', I have the willpower to be patient and wait for this just like I wait for everything else I need and want.

I AM CONTENT!

No, I'm not.

All I have been thinking about is that blasted Canon with all the trimmings. What if it has a telephoto lens? What if it has the reflectors to help me do higher quality pictures for this blog? What if. What if...?

What if can be a great jumping off point for creativity, but if I don't watch out it can really blow my contentment out of the water. Suddenly I wasn't seeing my cozy home and all that God has provided for our comfort and joy. I wasn't seeing that the Redneck works hard, pays the bills and allows me the freedom to work on projects that interest me, like this blog. All I saw was that I couldn't buy a stupid camera that I HADN'T EVEN LAID EYES ON YET.

When I write a post about something that I am struggling with, the simple act of putting my thoughts on the screen often helps me change my perspective of a situation. I am seeing things in a more realistic way, and my discontent seems very silly.

Scripture says in 1 Timothy 6:6;

"But godliness with contentment is great gain. For our profit is great, which is the worship of God while having the necessities, for we have enough. A godly life brings huge profits to people who are content with what they have. But godliness actually is a means of great gain, when accompanied by contentment."

I do have enough. I have a family who loves me, a husband who works hard to provide, a roof over my head, food in my pantry, and clothes in  my closet. To throw away my thankfulness for all this over a camera is flat out evil.

So, I will exercise my willpower, concentrate on what is in front of me right this moment, and thank God for the blessings He has given me and my family. I will put the 'need' for a camera into His hands and let Him handle it. I will do my housework with a joyful heart and praise Him no matter what. And I am going to be content.

Thanks for listening--it really helped.

Well, I got chores. Later y'all.
© Evelyn Edgett 2018



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  1. I love this post. I, also, have enough, but sometimes want more. What a great reminder.

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    1. Thanks Becky. I find it funny that even with all the amazing blessings we have in our lives, we still think we need just one more thing.

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